I have been thinking about this topic for a while now.
I am a lifer. When I make a friend I feel like they are (or should be) a friend for life. It takes me a bit longer than many to open up to people. I guard myself. I have security issues and don't want to get hurt and don't want people to not like me. I am shy and easily intimidated. It's silly, but it is what it is.
When I open up enough to have a friendship with more than the "Hi how are you?/Good, how are you?" conversations then I probably consider you a friend. The more communication we have and the more time we spend together, the closer I feel to to you. Once we get to the friend stage it is near impossible for someone to no longer be a friend, in my eyes.
I have a hard time meeting new people and just feel awkward, but I greatly appreciate the friendships that have formed after so many meetings. Over the years God has brought some really phenomenal people into my life, and I am so thankful!
Life happens. Just as seasons happen. Sometimes I try too hard to hold on to relationships that perhaps were only meant to be for a certain season. The relationship can die out or fizzle. This is hard for me because, as I said, I am a lifer.
I am not intending this to mean that I am actively trying to make any of my friendships fizzle out. It's more for those I feel have moved on to a new season and I am in denial. :)
Seasons of life is something I need to accept. I need to let go of those who are now in a new season as well, but it is never willingly on my end.
Thankfulness:
1. The school bus driver
2. Green grass
3. Sports that bring families/friends together
4. Garden Claw that aided me in yard work this week
5. Rhubarb
Verse to Chew on:
May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer. Psalms 19:14
